Shunya

Let go when you must- Its not always about trying to fix something that is broken. Some relationships and situations cant be fixed. The first to apologize is the bravest ; the first to forgive is the strongest . Be Still and Know.

Realization

Listening to song " End of Innocence" made my heart break ; but today when I read my own written poetry I went back to my roots ever since I'm 15 years which is towards OSHO-- I had one more realization
Your innermost core has always been pure; purity is intrinsic to you, it cannot be taken away. Your virginity is eternal; you cannot lose it, there is no way to lose it. You can only forget about it or remember it. If you forget about it, you live in confusion; if you remember it, all is clear.

Compassion & Gratitude

Many are lucky who connect deeply with many people/souls , few of us hardly connect deeply with others.. we might help, care but not connect and losing someone with whom you deeply connect due to ego, anger ,lack of compassion and gratitude is the worst way. :(...

I was going through Osho Tarot-- heart to heart and made me reflect on value of gratitude and compassion.

Gratitude is natural and is a consequence. Whenever you meditative in love, friendship togetherness you feel blissful, when you compassionate it is then gratitude arises. You feel gratitude for being in the moment towards the whole.

Story of Sufi Master- Junaid- Master of Al-Hillaj Mansoor..

He had a habit: after each prayer... and Mohammedans pray five times a day. After each prayer he would say to the sky, "Your compassion is great. How beautifully you take care of us, and we don't deserve it. I don't even have words to show my gratefulness, but I hope you will understand the unexpressed gratitude of my heart."
They were on a pilgrimage, and it happened that for three days they passed through villages where orthodox Mohammedans would not allow them even to stay in the villages; there was no question of giving them food or water.
For three days without food, without water, without sleep — tired, utterly frustrated... The disciples could not believe that this man Junnaid, their master, still goes on saying the same things. Before, it was okay — but still he goes on saying, "You are great, you are compassionate, and I don't have words to express rny gratitude."
On the third evening when he had finished his prayer, his disciples said, "Now it is time for an explanation. For three days we have been hungry, we have not had water, we are thirsty; we have not slept, we have been insulted continually, no place has been given to us, no shelter. At least today you should not say, Y

ou are great, you are compassionate.1 For what you are showing your gratitude?"

Junnaid laughed. He said, "My trust in existence is unconditional. It is not that I am grateful because existence provides this and that and that. I am — that's enough. Existence accepts me — that's enough. And I don't deserve to be, I have not earned it. Moreover, these three days have been of tremendous beauty because I had an opportunity to watch whether anger would arise in me, and it didn't arise; whether I would start to feel that God had forsaken me, and the idea did not arise. There has been no difference in my attitude towards existence. My gratitude has not changed, and it has rilled me with more gratitude than ever. It was a fire test, and I have come out of it unburned. What more do you want? I will trust existence in my life and I will trust existence in my death. It is my love .

Sometimes its too late... but still compassion and gratitude can go a long way in forgiving self and others and healing it all.

Relative "Sreyas"- What is Good For Oneself

• A woman is beaten on the street by a man as, I ( doer) goes and stops the man and instead slaps him 
• A colleague plays games and back stabs & I ( doer) plays games at a different time & get what I rightfully sort is mine.
• A girl is forcefully married, I ( doer) retaliates to and doesn't submit & leave the childhood home
• A child is abandoned by a mother in a garbage bag, I ( doer) grows up and questions the society & take my revenge
• A country is invaded by foreigners, I ( doer) fights against the invaders.

Here I ( doer) is any person doing the action . I am sure all of us have been through similar situations which have were like conformance to certain ethical code defined by the  society, family, own values. This like a conflict between what is perceived to be good or bad / dharma or adharma in the eyes of others/society at large/Own principles/Own conflicting feelings.

Chapter two of Bhagavad Gita mentions Sreyas- which simply means what is good for oneself which one seeks knowingly or unknowingly, which is generally translated to " Ultimate good for all "
As per Bhagavad Gita- Good is a very relative terms and is not hardcoded per say as it is usually propagated. What is good today is not good tomorrow, what is good for one is not good for another, situation based good or bad. In Indian Culture and as per Bhagavad Gita there is no absolute Do's/Dont's or Good/Bad.
Dharma as it is depicted is not ABSOLUTE, sometimes speaking truth or non injury must be sacrificed for a greater good or considering overall situation. There is no absolute wrong or absolute right. India's Independence- Bhagat Singh is one such legend, World Wars are all examples of nothing being absolute and only relative.

As per Bhagavad Gita- A Sense of Dharma has to grow within oneself. A person who understands dharma is the one who can decide upon an action appropriate to the situation. Seeing the limitations of alternatives, Arjuna realize he wants only Sreyas.
It is common for all the "WANT"of  outcome of Sreyas is "Puran Atama ( realization of full self & happiness), Nirvana, Liberation.

Interestingly the focus on crown chakra is all about the pleased being " Shreyas" being content with oneself and doing what one must do.

Human Problem - " Mind "

Every mind is a KURKSHETRA " Battlefield", constantly in a state of conflict arising out of option /choice. The choice of " to do" or " not to do". Animals have no conflict " should I be a veg or be a non- veg"; " Should I marry or not".
With the advantage of developed mind comes the flip side of unpredictability... The unpredictability of the mood, thoughts, mind. This unpredictability even leads to one being unable to relate to oneself. Sometimes we try to do different things, live different lifestyles, practice meditations, healing, jobs just to sometimes get away from the ailing fundamental conflict.

Five of Wands- depiction of multiple
conflicts in the mind-- a battlefield 

The Other day a friend mentioned on Facebook- " A rich man bargaining with a vendor standing in scorching heat  for 5 rs. vs. a beggar who shared his half roti with a dog" The Question being- WHO IS RICHER... Only humans are capable of having such complex thought processes and ever engaging perception- A Dog for once would'nt have thought the beggar is doing a kind deed. This is again due to "Human Mind" every battling in thoughts and perception. This is also one of the example of constantly " WANTING" to enrich the mind and knowledge... The constant in the mind " I WANT" " I WANT".

The Bhagavad Gita Says we all strive to be different in some ways-- either by wanting material things, or by wanting knowledge or by wanting love or by wanting God or by wanting something or the other. All this "WANT" is just a mean to be comfortable --- i.e comfortable to the mind. This comfortable levels are also derived by comparisons. Comparisons of wanting things and leaving things all for the comfort of the mind.It is very interesting how to can be related to the five of wands of mostly unwanted battles.
For years I thought escapism is the best route, escape to another country, escape to another want... fortunately the truth is ---escape is just running from oneself or rather constant want or efforts to comfort the mind.
Nothing literally nothing can be changed within if the root cause is not solved for good- INADEQUACY OF SELF is the Human Problem.